Dear Readers,
Hows is everyone doing? All good I hope. Now, some of you who read my blog understand what this blog will be touching upon. Fans.
What is the definition of a fan? FANATIC. No offense, but thats the meaning behind it... But there are those who definitely pull way too far into the blue with that shit. I think if your a real fan, you can understand the person your a fan of. Of course not all of its details, but at least know about the difficulties behind their lives.
I truly understand that my fans must go through difficulty in their lives as well. cause we are all humans. However, if you stop and think for a second , you might realize I have it pretty hard due to dealing with thousands of different emotions, and personalities. I know some of you deal with a lot of people in your line of work, but this is a bit different.
When I do my youtube, or blog... I put people into two categories.. just simply black or white. I hate mixing in between... Its neither you ARE a fan, or you are a HATER. I'm not A judge nor a person who has a lot of time to deal with muddy ,unclear individuals. Also, I shouldn't have to, its so unfair to me don't you think?
However, on my blog there was a fan. Just a young girl who found interest in me once, but wanted something more out of it. Started getting angry at me for not singing a song she has requested. If you know have known me for a while... You will know the common facts.
1. I get a more messages then I can read... whether it be 100 per day, or 300 some days.
2. In these messages, contains hate mail, concern mail, questions, complains, compliments, worries, and of course requests.
3. These requests go from, happy birthday shout outs, sing this song, hear this song, talk about this, talk about that... Can you talk about why etc etc...Can you sing this and that.
4. Let says Out of these requests I chose a song to sing... I need to LEARN the song.. PRATICE the song, then RECORD the song. For example.. when I sang road to zion... it took me 3-4 days to learn it, a day to record it ... I don't have the time to sing everyones request. I apologize. (though, once in a blue moon there is a song someone requested and I already KNOW the song, then I can probably give it a go. )
All i was telling her was to understand my situation for ONCE. Instead of looking at it with her bitter " he didn't sing my song, cause he is an asshole" eyes. If that was the case, hundreds of my fans should be complaining to me right now. But, they do not~ because they REALLY are my fans, who care for my well being, and they understand what I truly go through. Those people I love to death! Those are the people I truly appreciate!
Obviously to some, this may come off as arrogant, but i'm seriously pleading to you guys. This is really, really not easy for me. I chose a path that is so mixed, some times its more then I can chew... If you guys noticed, I touch up on so many different things...Which is probably why its so hard for me. My mistake .
from singing, to talking about racism, relationships, and controversial topics... Fans of all kinds. Fans that only like the singing, fans that only like the ambw.. and etc etc. So sometimes, I find it difficult to find my bearing.
She also mentioned that I don't reply to my fans if its a compliment, and I only replied to her when she was being negative. Its true, I wrote an essay for her. Mainly because I wanted her to realize shes in limbo right now. Your not in one side or another. No person wants to lose a fan unless its hurting your life, and she was draining my happiness . I come home , read my messages , filled with hate mail and compliments alike . Then I come to blog to read some passive aggressive mail, that seems to be a compliment, but mixed in with some hater taste to it. Then I get all confused, is this sarcasm? Then it happened way too often then not... So thus a goodbye to her.
You guys will understand when I tell you this. When someone who is a hater tells you ,your doing a horrible JOB, you are this way, and you are that way... honestly hurts, BUT, you can endure it... because YOU KNOW thats what haters do. However, if you think they are for you, they are your friends, family... and then says less then par comments. You just droop to the ground...
Later on I realized she REALLY was a hater, You can tell by her ending remarks. She always believed me to be a liar, and she really was upset about me not singing her song. excuse me for the french, but thats one self center ass bumpkin.
Anyway,on a much lighter note, to my fans and subscribers out there, I apologize if I cannot answer your questions and comments.But i want you to know I try my best to read them all, and I message people randomly to be fair. Also I try different ways to reach out to y'all. If you notice me cowering back into my shell, just know it was another weird fan that got me all defensive.
"The greatest fan can become the greatest hater. Because they know everything about
you."
-My father
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Sorry about that hater making u feel bad. I'm a new fan of urs and I just want to say thank u for sharing ur talent and ur thoughts with all of us. Ur better without her. Keep ur head up.
ReplyDeleteHey Tenchi,
ReplyDeletei just wanted to say that the your take on handling situations is very admirable.
Like you said, it must be hard dealing with or seeing comments that really do get you down. But your whole approach and attitude when confronted with these haters; these challenges.. is really inspiring, i guess that's why i'm so intrigued.
If anything, you should know that there will always be more fans out there than your anti-fans. Your a genuine, humble person and that's what people like. Stay positive.
It's been a while since I've commented on some of your posts, but I felt like I should say something here.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Yuinonita when she says that your take on handling situations is very admirable. I mean, to deal with all of the haters and hate messages you probably get, you have to be a very strong individual, which I undoubtedly believe you are. People like this girl are bound to get to you, but just remember, for every hater out there, there are also at least 5 true fans to take their place. Yeah, I definitely believe that, so keep your head held high and basically, do you. :)
no need to apologize. we're all busy too.
ReplyDeleteYou cannot let other people misery upset your happiness. You are wrapped up with so much talent and believe it or not you inspire a lot of people to be better. Look at your newest FB fan “Tenchi JK Poetry Corner…what’s on your mind?
ReplyDeleteIt's because of what you did to have such recognition. And if there were more, I am sure it will be given to you. Oh my goodness, Rahni, who never wrote a poem in her life is willing to try. You, sir is worth every bit of gratitude. And I look forward to all the great things left to come. AJA AJA FIGHTING!!
mannn, you guys are the bees knees~ thank you guys so much!! XDD! ajaaja fighting y'all!!
ReplyDeleteyour doing the best you can, you are only one person. you do the best you can I think you are great for that. i am proud of you. god bless you tenchi. :)
ReplyDeleteOh GOODNESS!
ReplyDeleteStewvell was right I was going to be here come next blog (not about the cherry thing, that was just wierd even though you were the first person I spoke to on the internet), but only to DEFEND myself. This might surprise you but this time I'm not going to talk junk to you. To everyone reading this blog I will announce I am not a hater. Hating someone is that you want them dead. I don't want anyone to die, especially you. Tenchi I don't know if we will ever understand each other,but this is an attempt.
You wrote that you did not have enough time to answer the "Let me be your wings" question. I asked that question for a month (or even longer), I even posted the lyrics. When I turned mean you responded. To me that told me you did have time, the very fact that you answered back. After you told me you did not have time.I would have respected a straight up "NO" than an ignore. That is the reason I called you a liar. Then you threatened to put a dead pig at my front door. Now how hurtful is that?
I am sorry for draining your happiness. I honestly hope you get happy again! I also really want to say you should pay more attention to your true fans and positivity because haters, semi-haters, and negativity just gets you depressed (or angry).
Maybe I was little self centered because I expected your attention to be on me when you have many people wanting your attenton. I learned my lesson that internet world isn't like the real world. You speak to someone and they speak to you back. Sometimes people over the internet just don't want to respond (or something happened to them) and I should have never took your none response personally. I am truelly sorry for trying to force my song upon you.
P.S: When we were arguing I didn't think you were an A hole, I was just upset that you didn't respond to my request. I didn't want to leave you with the impression that I was a mean B.I.T.C. "shut your mouth" because I am really not. If I was I would have kept harassing you and said worst things. Most people say I'm a sweet girl!
Love: Charm
"I was just upset that you didn't respond to my request"
ReplyDeleteLike I already said, you deliberately hurt my feelings because of your immaturity, and then you lied to me saying it was because of this and that. You think I don't know your true intentions? You think I'll be mean to just anyone? No, this is good bye.
Tenchi,
ReplyDeleteI'm pretty sure you are aware that you might have mentally unstable fans out there. Some might think you're their boyfriend. I had read some comments from a few fans left on your Facebook, Twitter and Tenchijk Blogspot. By reading what they wrote, I got the feeling that they know you intimately of coourse, in their minds or fallen in love with you. By me reading the few comments, I felt emotions from the writers and they are actually in love with you. When you don't sing or respond to their email messages, they feel rejected and their tongues now become venomous to hurt you. Tenchi, just stand strong and wipe your shoulders off and say to yourself, these people aren't going to stop me from doing what I love and continue to walk on. That's all you can do.
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ReplyDeleteHi.. :)..
ReplyDeleteI'm just really curious. You mentioned 한(Han) in one of your past videos, so my question is "Are you a Korean?". I hope you do not find this question annoying (could be you have already answered it a couple of times), but since I am curious, I would just like to know :)...
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