july312013

Hope y'all been good with everything- I pray that you're always peaceful in the spirit , and good in the heart. I pray that your minds are refreshed, and in love with God.
I know this world can be a dark and lonely place, and I know sometimes it feels like there is no way out- as cliche as that may sound, many folks are dealing with that kinda stuff as we speak. I'm sure I talked to thousands of folks who are going through those things now.
I want you to ask God for things - He is more than willing to give you up to half the world.   God is always willing - but first make sure you are a child of his.

Because ladies and gents- if you are not his child, although he may do good deeds unto you- it will always been as to a stranger. Think of this- Imagine you have a daughter, and you go to the park with her. The lovely ice cream man comes jingling his icecream bell , and you decide to buy her a ninja turtle ice cream. Next to you however is a child that belongs to another person - She's mean to this child, and telling her, NO you don't get no dang ice cream - you fat . Or something like that.

I mean, as a parent , you might feel pity and decide to buy her one too - but think of the conflict that occurs. Will that other mother simply say - Oh thank you~ Or would she say something like " EY! Who do you think you are!"

What i'm trying to get at is this- When you choose to stay in your sins , you are the children of Lucifer - Lucifer , Satan or the Devil is not your friend - but if you are not with God, you are unfortunately with him.

So although God would want to do great things unto you- and sometimes He does - to convince you to come to him~ its not always possible. Satan is a huge blocker - that dude got no shame.

So God is always calling you , always showing you the light, and never turning it off. He waits and waits- and watches you from a far. He often sends people to you to turn you softly to him -

For example, in this scenario - The mother might not give this other girl the ice cream herself, but might send her little girl. When they are playing together, the little girl might say to her secretly- "Hey , my mommy said to share with you , here have some!"

This is essentially what God wants from us Christians - We are here to bring you over to Christ Jesus - Because He is the way and the light and most definitely the truth , and there is no way to GOD besides him. For Jesus Himself IS God.

Its really difficult to explain the gospel in this description box, and I don't know why I never used it before like this - But i'm glad I found it haha, Its pretty awesome . Its kinda like a mini blog.

Anyway Guys - God is very real. And He has always loved you , whether or not you believed him. The media pays a lot of money convincing you the opposite- They try so hard to make christians into the bad guys, using false christians to give true christians a bad name. Don't believe it.

Christians are simply those who were atheists, who has no business with God, Who went against God, who lied, who cheated, stole and killed - but one day saw themselves for who they really were.

The problem with the world is this- We are numb. We cannot feel our sins. We do them every day - but we cannot feel it, we pass it by as some sort of fluke - But our sins, in our daily lives cause the pains of millions across the world. Our lack of love , and lack of passion for the poor, the sick and the lame causes unnecessary deaths-

Do not use this as an excuse to dismiss God - "If God is all powerful , and all loving why the hate and death in the world?"

God indeed is all powerful, and all knowing- But He created this world imperfect. Imperfection comes hand in hand with Free will. Free will is a choice we have- this choice can either bring eternal life , or eternal death.

Without evil, there cannot be trials, or conflict, or error, or a choice to deny God. We most definitely have a choice to spit at God, and choose with ALL our hearts to curse him and deny him- He gave us that choice -

God invited all people into his perfect kingdom that he WILL create. That is the theme of the bible ladies and gents-

So before you dismiss God in your life - be it crazy , or insane - Pray to God for you to understand him , or to find him. If you cannot believe him now, its fine! If you think its crazy , its okay too! But the least you can do is ask "God" to give you a way to find him. And After this simple pray - And He does not allow you to find him, then He has lied-

But I guarantee , if you ask him this, He will answer you , and give you a way out.

I love you atheists - and I know sometimes we can be reallly annoying to you - and believe you me, y'all can be that way too haha- but we are both human beings, and God loves us -

The next few videos I'll make with be dedicated to you lovely folks - If anything, I want to answer most of the questions y'all have , and try to deliver them unbiasedly and with some light hearted fun. Be blessed and safe till then- Much love!

-TenchiJK-

I awoke tired- with sounds of ringing in my ears. It reminded me of where I got it from ...

Went through my email to see the various comments and concerns people have for me.

Interesting to see all the cries - for the lord.

I've been getting a lot of arguments from Muslims, and I figured I can write my beliefs down here.

I am an Asian man - not from Arabia, or Israel. I'm from the outside, looking in - a gentile.

From what I have read from the bible-

Abraham comes from the land of Ur- supposedly Sumeria - Notorious for their idol worship, and communication with the fallen ones. They had tremendous technologies , as they bartered worship for esoteric knowledge.

From the group of Idol worshippers God chose Abraham - one particular man that was set aside for God- who did not bow down to these idols ... Or perhaps he did at one point, but repented of such things and heard the calling of God.

Either way - God called upon Abraham.

God promised him something - without condition.

God promised through him, all nations would be blessed, and that his people would be as large as the stars in the sky and numerous like the grains of the sea.

He was a chieftain. He had a wife named Sarai- but she was barren. She could not get a child.

In the back of Abraham's mind there was always the reminder of God's promise to him- thou shalt have a son ...

He waited and waited and waited... And soon his faith started to die. Doubt crept in.

Sarai was 90 - and he was 100... Although they lived much longer then, it was still way past the age of giving birth.

Even though God had promised them a child through Sarai - they could not believe.

So one day , Sarai had an idea to give her Egyptian Handmaid (servant/slave) to Abraham to lay with- to have a son, an heir , through her.

Can't really imagine how that conversation would have gone down- but Abraham laid with Hagar - the egyptian servant.

They bore a child, and he was a strong male. Abraham named him Ishmael - and had all his inheritance lined up to give to his son. But , it was not God's plan.

God's plan was through Sarai- who later became Sarah.

The lineage is VERY important- because the seed of Jesus had to come from a specific line. Jesus cannot be born out of Ishmael's line.

Sarah , just as God promised ,Got a child, even at her extremely old age. Healthy, kind and wise little boy by the name of Isaac.

Now the conflict -

Abraham raised ishmael for a long time already- he had bonded with the child. This child in the eyes of Abraham was FIT to be the leader of the camp. He was strong, and bold, and like a true Man- tough and fearless.

But that is what God despised in men.

For when a Man trust in his own abilities, they do not trust in the power of God. King Saul- Nimrod- Herod ,Cain, Esau, ishmael etc..

Isaac on the other hand , was weak - and unable, and relied on the power of God, and the leadership of God. (ie. Abel , David, joseph etc)

It was Isaac God chose - not ishmael.

Ishmael was later kicked out of the camp of Abraham- for there were rivalry between the two parties. Hagar who bore the child could no longer be a mere servant- She was raised to concubine- and started to despise her once master.

The Son of Abraham Ishmael was much older and stronger than Baby Isaac, and he abused the child - sexually some say , as an act of dominance.

Whatever tension caused the rift- they were kicked out. However, God did not abandoned them- God had a different plan for them, and promised them they would be great , and numerous , and that they would live by the sword.

Isaac eventually took over - and bore Jacob - who also had tension between his twin brother Esau .

Esau eventually joined Uncle Ishmael- and created the Arab nations we know today.

Meanwhile, Jacob bore 12 sons - very dysfunctional family- but through them was created the 12 tribes of Israel - and from the tribe of Judah- Jesus was born, who saved the whole world.

Satan works . He was diligently counterfeiting the work of God. When God does one thing, he does another-

Satan created the Roman Catholic system- he flipped the whole doctrine of God up side down.

Placed popes and priests over men- enslaving them, keeping them aways from the truth of God.

They created secret societies , and manipulated wars upon wars- famine upon famine - death upon death.

They believe THEY are the spiritual Chosen ones , not the Jews. They Believe Jerusalem belongs to the Vatican - the romans. But Jerusalem is Holy(set apart for God)-and it belongs to the Jews.

So the Roman catholic for centuries found different methods to kill the Jews -

Fast forwarding to WW2- Hitler was a roman catholic /jew.

The R.C had a program where they took half jewish boys/girls - and converted them into Romans. They were taught in monasteries to hate their own kind. Early brainwashing if you will...

Hitler was one of these creations. As we all know , this man came out of the blue - with crazy backing from Italy - and he He killed 6 million jews. (for the greater good)

But before this , something even more sinister happened.

Islam was created BY catholic priests- They created Islam through a use of a boy named Muhammad/using an already prevalent Moon god of the desert. This moon god was Allah - and he had 4 sisters. There was already a HUGE myth and lore behind this "allah" - Through the help of Roman catholic Jesuits, they were able to infiltrate this already existing religion, and change its core belief system , mixing roman beliefs into it. Muhammad used this to his advantage to take over the tribes he was desperately trying to win over. It was successful.

The Romans formulated this religion so precisely to keep the good , good, but salvation a secret - and to build extreme hatred for the Jews. The roman's originally created it to control it, as a puppet - to get rid of the Jews- Using jewish neighbors to get rid of their pest for them. However , God had a different plan.

God allowed the Arabs to grow larger and stronger than the Romans anticipated. The romans underestimated the Arabs love for God - and Although the doctrine was a bit messed up- many of God's morals were able to seep into the heart of many muslims.

God has a plan to bring everyone back to Jesus- But War is eminent- and the truth must come out.

And for this truth to come out, unfortunately many must die - This is where ww3 comes into play.

For now the two brothers fight,and kill each other- But the true enemy was the bully many hundred miles away - the romans. Once they realize this , and once the truth reveals God's chosen people, Israel - peace will return unto the two brothers. And what a formidable force that would be?

If not- all war will end at Armageddon.

But before all that - all blood bought Christian will be gone with a blink of an eye- where we will stay on the side line, while hell breaks loose on earth.

There is much to say - but for now I leave you with this.

God is one- and God has a plan for all people. He loves all, and he plans to save all his people.

It will all end well - trust in the Lord .





-TJK-

Prayer

Dear Heavenly Father,

    Firstly, I thank you for listening to my prayers. I know you always listen to them. I come to you just the way I am , broken and ashamed... Only with the works of Jesus I stand before you father, and I pray and speak my peace. God, thank you for life and your undying love for me. Thank you for my family and my friends and my health. Father God, I thank you for the love you have reserved  , and preserved eternally for me and my family. Lord, Life can be so dark... Life can be so cold, and empty ... but God I am reminded of your beautiful words that created light from that darkness. When the world was in desolation and turmoil , you spoke , and your Words became. It covered the land with your beautiful light, to govern the day and the night. You have given us warmth , and cool wind to breeze our troubles away. Lord, How beautiful you are in all your grandeur and majesty. How amazing your mind and soul - and how overflowing is your wisdom. There is truly none like you .
  Father God, out of the dust you have created me. You know me greater than I could possibly know myself in all my years. You touched my ever DNA, and weaved it into the being I am today . You know my fears and weaknesses, and you most definitely know my sins. You know how weak and fragile I am... Lord always have mercy on me God. Without your mercy I am but drift wood lost in the tremendous sea. Without your mercy I could only but break . God , I love you for you loved me first. You are my friend for you befriended me. I serve you , because you willingly served me first.
   Lord who am I that you would consider me? Who am I that you place your ears next to my mouth and listen to my little voice. God , you created the tallest peaks and the deepest oceans... you created the leviathan and the behemoths that roamed the vast land and seas... yet to a man , who is created by dust - you lean. You keep me safe from evil - those evil beings who placed themselves in high places- the principalities and place of honor. Other men might fall for them,and worship them... but God you have shown me, YOU alone is God. You command the sea to calm it, and you command the stars to shine. Lord , how vast you are. How thrilled I am always to see your kingdom. This kingdom you so advertised to all those around you... you promised a place for me there. I will no longer be as a vagabond roaming this earth as though a sojourner, but you will grant me a place to place my roots... for all eternity. And that God... is more than I deserve. Too great of a thing , I could never exchange it for my works. For what good can I do for you Lord? What can I possibly do to earn that gift? No Lord... I could never earn what you give out for free... Your grace. Your truth, Your ultimate Love. Father I refused as a child, but I accept it now as a man. Lord you are my only God, and I speak your name proudly. Jesus. Jesus , Jesus , Jesus how beautiful your name. People may curse you, and people may despise you, but as you said on that cross whilst you bled for us, you said, Forgive them father, for they know not what they do. Lord how true this is! I see , I see! I truly was blind for too long in my life... Too ignorant and stubborn to hear you call! Lord , You have saved me from this life, and saved me from all my troubles. My sin is NO longer mine to bear! Lord , my father, I come to you fully cleansed by your blood... and I stand boldly as your son. And I ask of you my petition - Lord give me courage. Lord Give me wisdom. Lord give me a voice to sing your praise! Lord give me the knowledge to overcome mine enemies, and let JESUS work inside my heart and soul, and may my spirit spring out living water for all those who gather around me. Let no darkness ever touch those who surround me . Let no worries come to those who gather around me. For Lord I am no longer alive, but YOU , my God in me. In faith I have died with thee, and in faith I have resurrected with thee. Lord my father God, I pray with all my spirit and soul - Love me for love sake, and Bless me for blessing sake - and always guide me in the path of righteousness, and lead all those who seek you , seek you. And let all those who bless me, be blessed. And let all those who seek the truth find it. I pray all this, in the name of Jesus.

Amen.

-David-
TJK

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Dear Readers, 

      Its been a while hasn't it ? it has, it has haha :). To start off I've been quite well~ Been busy joining society again.  Life in reality is quite harder then just an online one lol. Throughout the years , somehow I got stuck into the world of the internet - DUH~ so has everyone right? lol 

      But its true ain't it... We're all stuck behind this internet prison. Its almost like we traded in the real thing for a digital one, and we only SEEM content. I think all the stress we feel in life comes from everything being fake... Our inner soul can sense it;our inner being is screaming , give me the real thing!

      I guess we can argue what is the real thing lol, but lets leave that for a later date. Too much fighting going on as it is . Especially that nonsense going on over there in the middle east...Eerie times y'all, eerie times. 

      I've been pretty happy lately - but still an underlying sorrow lurks about. It reminds me of that one movie,  A beautiful mind with Russell Crowe. Or was it The beautiful mind? hahaha nah I think the first one. You know that scene where he finally (spoiler) - I mean dayum, if you haven't seen it already, just stop. Just stop. lol.. nah ~ anyway, in the movie Russell finally decides to ignore his imaginary friends... But they are always walking along side of him. Prettty creepy if you ask me. But my POINT WAS, my sorrow is like such haha.. took forever to explain this concept. 

    When I live my life I see the potential sorrows around me... well you know what , forget that .. lets talk about real sorrows. 

 Do you know who I feel the most sorry for? All of us. 

   Everyones joy is sucked out of them. All depressed, angry , frustrated, timid, and most of all no aspirations or dreams. Its like everyone just secretly gave up. Even those who are striving to become something don't really know why they are doing it... and when they achieve what they set out to achieve there is no satisfaction~ All vanity. 

  I take it from a wise king by the name of Solomon. He had everything... Women, wealth, treasures beyond anyones dreams, kingdoms, servants-  I mean dayuuum, this dude had EVERYTHING. But he 

says, all is vanity . 

  He says its vanity because it truly is. Lets think of this on a smaller scale ,cause we ain't that rich homie.

Since everyone wants to be rich lets talk about that . 

-people think once they become rich they will be happy ... We all know this isn't true... But yet , we always set up this illusion - " Those rich people don't even know how to USE the money , thats why they are sad or unsatisfied" 

When they first become rich , they will probably buy everything they have ever dreamed about... 

First a car- 

heres the thing about cars. If you buy a really GOOD car... lets say a ferrari... You can't just DRIVE it around locally - you're gonna look like a dick , seriously lol. 

You will end up going to fancier places- probably picking up hot women who have NO interest in you except your money - meet friends and family who ALL of sudden want a piece of you... 

What about lawyers scheming day and night - trying to rob you blind.

A biggg mansion with servants who talk trash about you.  Cold, echoey , demon filled rooms... I mean common , these huge houses were FILLED with orgies and satanic rituals~ Don't be so naivvvee~ haha. 

Think about it, these were billionaires who owned these... and all they ever do is CARNAL things... they are no different from the romans. They are searching for pleasure, the best kinds.. 

For the common folk, pleasure can be found in sex, street drugs and alcohol. But these rich folks do strangeeeee things... Some dab into magic, the DARK arts if you will- because frankly , the world of the normal is boring for them. So they touch up on ancient rituals, strange drugs from across the globe... And illegal women/ slaves etc etc. 

Even if you don't go as extreme as this... the little things you do as a rich person is SO much more carnal then the common folk... They are able, we are unable... So their soul is drained from them.. They let their flesh rule their lives... and being ruled by the flesh is tiresome, and it leads clearly to darkness.

All the choices from the flesh are ultimately for pleasure. But what pleasure brings is death. 

Drugs are the same way . Alcohol - no different- just takes longer. 

My point is, All in vanity . 

Our goal in life isn't to be indulging in pleasures. But surrendering your flesh to the king of kings.  

You might not like it, but there is a creator our there. And the creator , CREATED us for a REASON. 

This reason is for us to worship him, and love him. 

People have this concept of worship so wrong... They always compare it to idol worship. Bowing down to an object day after day ... SACRIFICING yourself the pleasures of life, and doing things you don't want to do etc etc...

Just like a sword is made for killing, and a water bottle is perfectly suited to drink water from... we as human beings were created to worship God. Which means we feel the MOST fulfilled when we do what our NATURE intends us to do -Which is to Worship and Love God. 

but the problem always comes with Sin. 

Sin is a virus. Sin is a curse. Sin is the sticky glue that bonds the flesh together with your soul... Holding you back... like a huge burden. A boulder on your shoulder... 

With sin we cannot worship God. Because worship needs to be perfect, pure, and holy. 

A man or women with a single ounce of Sin ruins this worship. 

think of yeast for a second.  God speaks about this quite often... Explaining YEAST as the symbol for sin. 

When you add yeast to grape juice what happens? It ferments and turns it into wine. It only takes a LITTLE yeast to turn an innocent grape juice into Alcohol. This is the same with us and sin. 

it only take a little bit of sin to turn our WHOLE body into something corrupt, and unworthy to give worship to God. Thus the vanity in all that we do. There is no satisfaction because we strive for the worldly things that can give us temporary pleasure, but never fulfillment. Like being able to EAT forever , but never getting full. 

This is why God took ALL mankind, and placed their sins onto the Cross... Which Jesus was the representative of. He represented us. 

Since no man could come CLOSE to what God required of us... God needed to send HIMSELF , As Jesus, to do the things we could not do. And after he has done all that was required, he willingly placed himself on that cross as a Sacrifice ... To do away with all our sins.. our curse, our burden, our doing. 

And All he asked of us was to believe on him. To believe that HE was indeed the one  that came and SAVED us all. 

Satan is your enemy, Not God. 

Satan is ALWAYS on your side, saying the things YOU want to hear. But trusting in your own mind will get you EXACTLY where Satan wants you to go. 

So stop following millions to the giant gate, where people are having fun, drinking, partying, sexing, drugging etc etc... 

- walk the narrow path. This path is narrow, but filled with beautiful people, blue skies, and perfect living water.

There is hope here! There is love here! There is eternal life here in Jesus Christ . 

I know there are thousands who are on the FENCE... Undecided... Is Jesus right for me? etc etc.. 

Yes He is right for everyone.  He is our righteousness . He is our wonka golden ticket. 

So accept him. You don't need to change ANYTHING. Because Just like how you couldn't keep God's laws, you cannot walk his walk... Nope... 

You just simply believe... and JESUS does the change in your life. And its VERY clear, it is Him. 

Come join the brothers and sisters in Christ , and be free of vanity , and live life giving thanks to the creator, the God of our lives, Jesus. 

Throw away your idols, and throw away your own experiences and mind.. because, no matter how great your thoughts may be, if they are different from God's then it is against him. 

Yayuh~

Dear Readers,

    yessss~ God allowed me to find a beautiful place to stay. Cheap, and cozy , and just epic sauce. AHH~ I'm so excited to move into my new place. New tables, and new beds~ and simply put a NEW life for God.
    Recently i've been struggling with a lot of stresses, but then I learned so many things along the way. I've learnt that Repentance means to change your mind. It does not mean to grovel, or beg, or to ask for forgiveness or to make a promise to God you cannot keep. But rather, changing that stubborn mind of mine.
    When I feel worried, I repent, and say I am not worried because Christ is my guide. If he guides me what is there to be worried about? Thats the truth, and I'ma stick with that. I noticed time after time, during hard situations, When I put my trust in Christ things worked out smoother then ice... But when I try to do it on my own accord.. it always , always coils up.
      I'm so excited to start filming freely in my new place~ it has a nice window for natural light, and a large wall to put up all my paints~ Its such a blessing indeed. I can't wait!! ^___^

I miss you guys :/

Meow.

Tenchi Jk here ^_^ .

Man.. life is so hectic these days. I've been cleaning the house , preparing to move out of this apartment to a brand new one! Woot! A new start , and fresh new start! New places to shoot my webcam yay~

Anyway :) .

Sometimes life can be so interesting. I see God working in my life , answering my every prayer, regardless of MY actions. Its so breathtaking to know God blesses my life, and treats me so wonderfully because of what Christ has done on that cross.

Don't get me wrong, I have dark days, and sad days... and days filled with worries and doubts. But those seeds don't grow roots into my heart... A farmer comes very quickly and pulls the weeds out of my life. And immediately I am faced with the sun again... the warm and good light.

Sin is a seed.

It enters our heart just like a seed. An idea. And that idea dies ,  just like how the seed dies... and it multiples, divides, and becomes a solid root inside our minds and heart. Then the Action is committed.

That is the same with Righteousness.

Jesus Being our seed. Our source of faith , grace and mercy. That idea of righteousness sparks by the holy spirit... who gives us all A thought.  The word .  Then that word multiples, and divides into many verses, and oceans of beautiful scriptures from God.

note: How wonderful is it, to look at symbols, lines and curves and to be able to speak it. Its truly amazing... This is a gift, not from Mr. Evolution.

C A T. How does that look like the animal at all? But yet, we all know its a meow meow. And how our words can create visuals... and stories, and poems... its so beautiful.

-cont.

When I have a hard time... many thoughts come into my mind. Some times it brings doubt. Some times it brings sadness, and worries. And sometimes it brings anger and fear. But during those times, there is always a counter thought.

"I am so sad today" Says the Flesh.
"You are always joyful in the Lord, and he has already blessed you." Says the holy spirit.

Do I choose A or B...

some days I choose A out of weakness. And My life goes on with that first choice... a Sad day.
But when I grab the faith the lord gave me and say , I am joyful for the Lord is Joy and I am connected with the Lord. Then my day is manifested by the words that I spoke out of faith. A Good day.

So when you live your life, Say verbally what the LORD said. Not what YOU say.

When you are weak, don't say you are weak. Say you are strong, for the Lord gives strength to the weak!

Have faith in your life.

All you christian brothers and sisters reading this, be in good spirits! Be strong in God! Fight the good fight! If we die for Jesus so be it! It would be an honor to die for Christ .

I know the world is so cruel sometimes. I know it can bring you down. I know you feel abandoned and lost.

But God has always been in love with every last one of you. Loves you so dearly. He carefully orchestrated your lives... like the fake movies people watch instead of their own movie.

The Cinema that the Lord had directed from the very start.

Starts at your birth.. the star is born. Then conflict, and situations to build character. Life was written and finished and published by our Lord. Enjoy it~ Don't let these media mongers steal what you have from God. Its your freedom, and righteousness.

God has given every one of his children gifts and blessings. Do NOT bury it in the ground!

Do not let other grumpy people tell you that cannot do it.

Yes, yes... you can accomplish all things in Christ! So start with changing what you say. Confess with your mouth, God is king. God is my shepherd I shall not want. Tell yourself, God has redeemed by through Jesus Christ. Say you are Kings and queens In God's kingdom. Say you are glorious and holy by the spirit of Christ. Take the position you were meant to ALWAYS have. Which is the royalty given to us by Christ the "KING".

If the Christ say we are his friends, and his bride... we are royalty through his own blood. Don't live life missing out on that position given to us to his born again children.



There is nothing impossible, or too out of reach. If God gave you the talent, and gifts in this life, use it!

Multiple those gifts , and bring about branches that fill up your WHOLE tree. Bear good fruit for the king! And let those who eat of your fruit be filled with happiness and open heartedness. So after they have tasted your sweet fruits, preach them the Lord who have blessed you.

teach them the freedom we have in christ Jesus, our God. Tell then why God loves us, and why we must love him.

Anyway~ Those who are heavy laden, put that burden on the Lord. He has already bore them on his shoulder 2000 years ago. It is your duty is to realize what Jesus has REALLY done.. and BELIEVE, and Have sabath. Be Free, be rested .

I pray all you wonderful people well in the world. And I love you all. Take care!!

Been a while :)

Hello dear Fans and subscribers!

    wow... its truly been a long time since i've written here. I hardly don't know what to say lol. Well how about knowing my life a little bit? I'm sure some of you guys are very curious? Maybe ? maybe Not?

    Well to be honest you guys, I was always pretty alone all my life. I've had many friends, but I always felt outcasted and hated by them all. They never told me I would be successful, or even compliment me in anything . I remember my life was about serving others... the cooler kids.

   I always felt like a guy stuck in the middle really. Not cool enough to be a jock or be the popular kid in School... but not really a nerd ethier... I had some skills and swag I guess lol. but it was never enough to bring me to where I always wanted to be.

   So as a child I used to lie a lot. To make myself more better then I really am.  I even faked my age, and did so many stupid things just to have people recognize me. I always felt so invisible. It was like... They loved me for my "talents"... but never for me.

   I was always the funny one in the group... had the best jokes, had the best stories and at times I would rile up the group into laughing frenzies... but after that , i was nothing. I was just some guy in the background.

  I remember I never used to get phone calls or text messages from any of my "friends"... but I was content really... but there was still a void in my heart.

  every friend I was being REALLY close with , some how moves away , or something along those lines. It used to pain my soul a lot.

  I was raised in a religious family , but honestly.. I did it for the show. I cried to the lord so many times in my life... but It was merely for what I wanted, not because I really wanted to find the Lord. I was so naive at the time :).

  I had a pretty privileged life style compared to most... but the sad reality was, I was not that well off COMPARED to  the people living in my neighborhood. At the time I felt so degraded... the poor kid in the group...

  when in fact .. my room had... so many things. A queen sized bed, a nice desk with the top of line computer , an awesome sharper image cd sound system... a walk in closet with TONS and TONS of clothes... just so on...

  But I felt like i had NOTHING. Tsk... what a life I lived.. sigh.

But as I grew older, life became harder and harder for me. I was starting to taste what true hardship is about... running from bill collectors after bill collectors. it was scary times indeed... but I'm amazed I passed it all hahaha... life is a breeze sometimes.

Anyway... I was getting older, and I needed to do something with my life... and I felt the Airforce was a quick and easy fix.

Boy was I wrong.

But I'm grateful for the experience. It was... haha , something else.

It taught me humility. It taught me , I'm not the top cat in the world. it taught me, Life is truly hard, and you need to fight for it.

But sadly , while I was in the military , life was just too hard for me... I lost many friends, through deaths... and just life was really difficult.

I even wanted to die at those moments of my life. I was selfish to think if I died, all things would be good... forgetting how painful my parents would have been... How selfish I was...

finally, I got out of the military...

I started to search for God in my heart.

i started to see the corruption in this world. The sadness that is clearly seen all over the world. The inner void that everyone has. The depression everyone tries to conquer but fails. They try to trust each other, but continuously get heart broken. Over and over and over again.

I started to open my heart to the world through youtube . At first... I just wanted to see if people really thought I was  good singer or not lol. My friends never appreciated me... and my singing... so i never had proof , if I could actually sing...

And at first , all the compliments helped me . I was sooo excited and happy to see people love my voice!! It was so refreshing !

but then, pride comes inside my heart... and it wasn't good for me. What was meant to be a good thing, became a poison in my soul. And I started to drift away from God...

I truly forgot why God gave me my voice in the first place. it was to PRAISE him. It was to sing for HIM. not for myself, or for others, but for HIM.

But before all this realization , I needed to go through some DARK DARK DARK times.

I don't wanna mention it here... but trust me, it was dark enough to change any man.

And I was awaken by my father in heaven.

He allowed me to come back to him, in his beautiful, warm bosoms.

He did not condemn me, or judge me... he accepted me exactly the way I was.

dirty and all....

Now, before I had no true friend... but I believe Jesus was showing me... in this world, there is no friend greater then HE. And he was right...

Jesus' friendship, and his love saved me... so saved me in my life.

In my heart there is such light and joy , its hard to explain...

My soul just rejoice in the name JESUS... if I say the word Jesus, My eyes tear up with such joy ...

So yea... my life has had many ups and downs.. just like you fellow people out there.

I know how difficult life is for you guys out there.

I know how alone times can get , and I know how it may feel as though you cannot trust anyone...

But there is definitely someone who you can trust , and that is Jesus Christ .

Man... now... I love my parents more then anything.

I respect my father whom I used to despise...

My father is what a christian man should be... He holds onto the promises of God , no matter what people say. He holds it tight like all the prophets and men of God in the past . I admire that truly...

And my mother , she is a lovely woman. So loving and kind, and so honorable to her husband. She treats him like her king. and He treats her like his queen... It is a wonderful thing to see, such beautiful love and connection from God.

They pray together everyday , and have fellowship on the word of God... and they walk to the park and read each other the bible... and they sing praises while my mother plays the guitar.

I just hope one day God blesses me with such a wife...

I know I wrote a lot, but I just wanted to share a bit of my life. I know its kinda embarrassing...

But you know what ? Everyones life has errors and embarrassments...

There are so many things we all wish we didn't say , or do... but we have.. and its done.

But, don't let that get you down. That is what life is. God gifted us these mistakes and errors so that we may GROW from them.

Just like GOLD , needs to be tested in Fire... He also does that in our lives. He constantly tests us, and puts us into fire like situations... making us more pure and pure in him.

And one day , God will make us into Gold... everlasting in his heavenly Kingdom.

So don't let the world get you down... its their final resort to get us down.

We are created in God's image... and satan cannot do ANYTHING ,only but to ruin God's image... therefore all the drugs, and depressions, and hate...

it changed the IMAGE of man...

Look at a man with JOY in his face... he faces through the sky looking at the Heavenly throne of God... God gives us his joy because he is faithful, and so giving.

But satan brings us into trials and tribulation... and the first thing to go is your eyes. The innocence of the eyes disappear.. Then your smile... and the bags under your eyes.. then the hollowed cheek bones... corrupted skin and grayish complexion.

But , trust me gentle folk... turn to the WORD of God... and watch your face GLOW like Moses who saw the burning bush in the mount.

When Moses stood before the word of God... his face just started to glow...

Likewise, when we stand before God's bible... we cannot help but to shine!

So loving folks, I thank you so much for all the support you've all given me. truly, I cannot thank you guys enough...

You guys helped me through some of the most HARDEST times of my life... Your sweet words and comments seriously boost my day, and I want to become a wonderful person In Christ because of you folks.

I just want you all to know how much I cherish all of you , and I wish I could repay the kindness to you all one day . Whether it be through good works, or by the words I may feed you with.

But All I know is , you guys mean so much to me. And I just pray that you are all safe, and be blessed in your life.

If you hanging low, sit up and smile! You have people that love you and care for you.

If not, remember, GOD , the creator of ALL life and matter and ALL things... CREATED you , DNA by DNA... touching every fiber of your being.

He crafted you individually, SOO perfectly and so precisely , and wanted you all to live a WONDERFUL life in this world, until you all go to his PERFECT kingdom.

So do not squander the gifts and love that God has given you. EVERYONE has a gift from GOD! EVERYONE... you need to just look hard! and pray to GOD, and ASK him what is my gift oh lord!?

And he will show you...

ultimately , our gift is to PLEASE the Lord.. and to PRAISE him, and to WORSHIP him.

Whether it be through your music, through your art, through your act of kindness... or simply PRAYING to him.

How lovely is it, when the creation kneels before someone they cannot even see... but they BELIEVE him from his WORDS. God didn't even have to PROVE himself, but these humans humbly bow down to this GOD, This beautiful JESUS. And says... Lord, I am in need of this... etc.

God would be so happy to hear the cries, the tears, and the prayers of mankind.. So don't delay.

get saved, have faith in Christ ... and start worshipping the Lord with me.

Time is running out!

Can you not smell death coming? I surely can... I'm sure you can to.

Anyway... Loving folks.

I love you all so dearly , and just want wonderful things in your life! Take care and I wish you the best!!!

-tenchiJk-

-DAVID PAK-